Setting up....

I'm getting my brain ready to post about the June 27th Time to Fly 10k...but its not ready yet! Thought I would fill you in on whats been going on, whats been on my mind, in my heart, and whats coming up for the weekend!

This past year has been alot of soul searching. Ups and downs, lefts and rights...a few wrongs in there as well, but who's counting...no, really...is anyone counting (show of hands perhaps)...okay, didn't think so. I frequently find myself going from hot to cold, warm to luke warm, and back to hot and cold. This at the expense of so many things....mostly relational things, and half the time I am unaware...like a lost coin.

It's time to work on me!! Or should I say, let God work in me, through me...bringing in a new me. Almost sounds like profanity, cause I've been here before lest I just ignore? it's not about me anymore its more about my core and my beliefs...they bring relief in a time of need and then I can proceed with caution when I'm angry, disenchanted, unrealistic, ballistic, catalyst...needs some rest. I push away as you push back to save, to my dismay and may I say, it puts things in disarray not just for the day, but for the hour when I'm losing the power to decide for myself, the selfish nature that easily prevails, which entails, that my coattails are burning on fire for the reason of singing and bringing and believing in something that must be more than what it was before in order to do more and explore what brings me here wanting to disappear into thin air...to lose myself in something bigger, I'm a sinner...knowing that I'm getting thinner and nearer to the healer, the heart transformer....the garden of my heart grower...knower, fonder of me than I can ever be, bringing me to my knees. No more pain, if its the same by a different name then that's what I'll claim to be, FREE! I just want to be free....